well i saw waldo today.
grrah- that's how seeing him makes my brain feel.
oh me oh my.
on another note.
this life is so frustrating. the future is a simply terrifying place. humans have taken much more that our fair share of the world. and if we continue on at this ridiculous rate we'll destroy ourselves. we're like a contagious disease that must be contained. i wish i was more than just one person. like an army of peaceful-environmentalists out to save the world. that would be nice. but for now. these thoughts reel around in my brain as i plan how to fix the world as one and not an army.

i hate people. we are all so incredibly selfish. and stubborn. and short-sighted. fgfajhgm cnae.

life is so terribly short. this might sound silly but i honestly have to keep reminding myself that this really does all come to an end. that this really is my one shot to make an impact. life doesn't give us a polite chance to try again. its all or nothing while you're here. i don't understand life. it's like constant project. we build and grow and learn and develop and to what end? why are we alive. it's as though we have some great ambition of some award that we have yet to be informed of. i truly do not understand and this causes me great frustration.
if it turns out we are simply some amusement for some twisted higher being i will be severly annoyed.

blehh. i'm done ranting for now.
night.