watch out.

grrr. i think i'm in need of sleep.
sometime away from the world.
as much as i love life i hate it.
why does it have to end.
and if it doesn't end, if there is some second or third or whatever life couldn't we know?
so people like me who over think everything have one less thing to think about.

sorry i know that sounds morbid.
that's not what i was going for.
i just got frustrated.
none of my friends are working out right now.
i feel like i'm so much more there for my friends than they are for me.

when i ask "whats wrong?" or "how are you?" i really mean it.
i don't have empty conversation. i say things to get somewhere.
if saying something seems pointless i just don't say it.

so the next time you look sad and i ask if you're okay please don't feel like you have to just say yea to make it easier. that doesn't make it easier for me. knowing you're upset but not knowing why of if i can help make's me feel sick.literally. now on the other hand. i try to be considerate as much as possible. couldn't you work on that. if we have plans to hang out, but someone else wants to hang out then just hang out with them. don't try to fit everything on one day. i don't want to feel like i'm being pushed back to second place or something. i really don't see the point of having a sleep over where you pick me up sometime after 10 and we sleep till around 11 and i should be home around 12. that just doesn't make sense. sleeping in the same room doesn't count as hanging out. we were supposed to have a fun day. oh well.


come on kids shape up.
get your acts together.

letdown of the week.