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your lips run the risk of breaking me down tonight,
if your voice says those words i've been dreading.

contemplations.

i feel like falling down.
and i wish someone was here to catch me.
just a few days back i predicted this fallout.
today was so lovely.
then it just fell apart.
there's a storm sweeping through.
too soon for me to enjoy the day's sun.
a wave of doubts on all accounts.


i would like to just collapse
and lay here a while
you could come and sit with me.
but please stay silent
i need to think
and just to know
that you're thinking of me
could relieve some pressure.

just breathe

i have these words
just neatly set aside
waiting to be spoken
but you won't give me a chance to speak.
and i have this ache
it's that flutter in my chest
that makes breathing strange.
i know you don't mean harm
but that's already forgotten.
i just need to correct what i've done wrong.

so go ahead and hurt me,
if you'll feel better in the end.
as long as my breathing returns to normal,
and these words are let to do their healing.

limited.

don't you see: you're limited.
everything you do is so full of good intentions.
i think you'd hold me back.
but, if you we're willing i could help to pull you along.
can't you see: i'm just wainting.
waiting till i'm old enough to get away.
away from everything that's holding me down.
this way of life is far too suffocating.
i'd like to help you live.
you're just so limited

i am.....

i am
as the wind.
not one to follow,
but more to lead.
mingling and meddling.
blending the world's variations
by connecting the hidden similarities.
free. like the bird.
yet bound.
held to reality by responsibility.
lacking wind we'd have no storm.
with no storm we'd never realize the peace.


i am.
teal. with hues of grey.
the color of rain.
on a cool dark day.
nature is where i feel most at peace.
as the rain. i wash problems away.
yet sometimes i try too hard
as some are cleansed others are revealed.
there is never an end
when one tries to save it all.

its under construction...

cry-

the body seems to tighten and shudder as if from a sudden chill.
but there is a sense of total dispair.
breath becomes an unsteady and labored process.
pain too great to open your eyes.
as the stinging breaks behind closed eye lids,
tears fall.
slowly streaking down your face,
then more easily streaming as the pain begins to subside.

terrible frustration relieved so quickly
through an action that truly does not make sense.