Floating alone through a sea of endless space. A life-supporting sphere hurtles constantly in an eliptical, patterened way. This is all we have. There is no where we can escape to when we destroy the one safe place we know.

if only it was Saturday, things would be better in every way

well i hope everyone had a good weekend.

i had a lovely weekend.
nick was home from school for the weekend.
he and jen picked me up from work friday and we went bowling.
i like him. i think he's really neat. we talked about everything.
and guess what...
we're related. yeah. ask anyone.
and i can't believe we have so much in common
but haven't hung out more in the past.
then we hung out again saturday-
-nick, nichole, jen and i.
frisbee and mall.
yay.

there you are.
i love how you look with the sun in your eyes.
i know now we can't be.
it just won't work.
atleast for the time being.
and i have great hopes for you
to go off next year. and find happiness.

so that when i see you again
i'll know that i was right to stop trying.

Antoine de Saint-Exupery

"Grown-ups never understand anything for themselves, and it is tiresome for children to be always and forever explaining things to them." (from The Little Prince)

"Over and done with. Thirty thousand letters come safely through. The airline company kept drilling it into you: the precious mail, more precious than life itself. Enough to keep thirty thousand lovers going... Lovers, be patient! In the sinking fire of sunset here we come. Behind Bernis the clouds are thick, churned by the whirlwind in its mountain bowl. Before him lies a land decked out in sunlight, the tender muslin of the meadows, the rich tweed of the woods, the ruffled veil of the sea." (from Night Flight)

let's tune out by turning on the radio

from the motion picture: what dreams may come

"sometimes when you win, you lose."

i know all too well what exactly that means. or atleast i feel as though i understand how that could apply to a time in my life about two years ago. this might sound pathetic to some of you but i'm okay with that. there was this guy. and i don't know what complelled me to turn him down, but i did. and somehow that felt like the right decision. i have this strange sense of a need for independence. to a point where i avoid realtionships, even push them away. sometimes i fight against them as if they might just kill me. and then i'm relieved for a while. until i realize he's not going to keep fighting back. and then i fall apart. that's how i felt. that i won, until i realized i had lost. perhaps that isn't the right interpretation of that quote so i'll try again.
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my mom had two brothers. both of which i love more than i can say. more than they know.
-todd is wonderful. he has always been the best male figure in my life. he has always supported me in everything i do and in everything i hope to do. and there was leif.
-leif. oh leif. i love him. he has many qualities that i hope to embody. he had a love of music that was constantly evident. and a love of his family. and a kindness about him. he past away when i was six. he had aids.
and he had won. by losing. when he was getting very sick he chose to not stay in the hospital. he came home. he had hospice care nurses who came to take care of him. ultimately he did pass away of aids. but, he had that time to be at home. in his own bed. with his partner and family with him without the stressful surroundings of a hospital.

blahh. i feel like ranting and raving about the world.
and when i think of that i think of people with personality issues.
and then i think of people in this class that feel the need to actually make an effort to be a**holes. i am so sick of highschool and the stupid people. i really don't understand people that are consistantly immature. why can't you realize you won't be in highschool. you won't be allowed to blow off idiotic actions because your some punka** teen.

if we could all realize that we are all in this together.(even though no one acts like it.) and this really is the only shot you get. you won't always be allowed to try again. as unfortunate as it is, this does in fact all come to an end. stop screwing off and get your act together so this can be the best use of your one chance.


blah.

blehhh....i really don't like this at all....but the thoughts are there....check back after it becomes a tad more eloquent....thanks.


you should know i could be it.
the friend that you need
if you'd just let me.

no i don't want to be lovers.
i just want your smile,
and a few quiet sunsets
as we talk in the park.

if you showed up at my door
with the words "i need to talk"
i hope you know i wouldn't think twice.

let's go.
we'll go for a drive. or we can just walk.
i only ask for one thing.
that you'll trust me.

hands up, held fast
against this breaking world.
the weight of the world hasn't beaten us yet.

neat dictionary stuffff

nichole --[noun]:
a level headed person who always makes the wrong decision.

lily --[noun]:
A person of questionable sanity who starts their own cult

watch out.

grrr. i think i'm in need of sleep.
sometime away from the world.
as much as i love life i hate it.
why does it have to end.
and if it doesn't end, if there is some second or third or whatever life couldn't we know?
so people like me who over think everything have one less thing to think about.

sorry i know that sounds morbid.
that's not what i was going for.
i just got frustrated.
none of my friends are working out right now.
i feel like i'm so much more there for my friends than they are for me.

when i ask "whats wrong?" or "how are you?" i really mean it.
i don't have empty conversation. i say things to get somewhere.
if saying something seems pointless i just don't say it.

so the next time you look sad and i ask if you're okay please don't feel like you have to just say yea to make it easier. that doesn't make it easier for me. knowing you're upset but not knowing why of if i can help make's me feel sick.literally. now on the other hand. i try to be considerate as much as possible. couldn't you work on that. if we have plans to hang out, but someone else wants to hang out then just hang out with them. don't try to fit everything on one day. i don't want to feel like i'm being pushed back to second place or something. i really don't see the point of having a sleep over where you pick me up sometime after 10 and we sleep till around 11 and i should be home around 12. that just doesn't make sense. sleeping in the same room doesn't count as hanging out. we were supposed to have a fun day. oh well.


come on kids shape up.
get your acts together.

letdown of the week.

DEBBIE ONLY

Pig Disection Intro+conclusion

Through this dissection we hope to learn more about the process of disection and the subject of anatomy. We also hope to learn about the anatomy of this pig in order to aid in our learning throughout this course.

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The dissection of the fetal pig helped us to learn about anatomy and to gain some idea of the true look and feel of the organs and organ systems of a living organism. Also with seeing the organs of a small mammal we are able to learn about the anatomy of humans.

politically correct word changes.

king-
non-childbearing monarch

youngest princess-
most recently born childbearing pre-monarch

dance-
rhythmical movement of one non-childbearing biped and one childbearing biped

tree-
plant having a permanently woody main stem or trunk, ordinarily growing to a considerable height, and usually developing branches at some distance from the ground

eldest princess-
first born childbearing pre-monarch

goose-
large winged farm-foul

clown-
amusingly confident non-childbearing veteran of war
[[the entertaining non-childbearing make-upped and costumed biped ]]

sleeping-draught
concoction to encourage the behavior of closing the eyes and rejuvenating the mind

soldier
non-childbearing veteran of war

old woman-
time enhanced childbearing biped

handsome prince-
aesthetically pleasing non-childbearing pre-monarch

word of the day

Urban Word of the Day
www.urbandictionary.com

March 01, 2007: Zoom Zoom Zoom
http://www.urbandictionary.com/define.php?term=Zoom+Zoom+Zoom&defid=1854519

In conversation it is an expression which follows a particularly good but lighthearted insult in order to emphasize the caliber of the remark. It is similar to the way that a person would use the word [burn]. Though the phrase itself was first made popular by the Mazda auto commercials, this particular usage was popularized in the popular television show "Scrubs", where it is often accompanied by a short "Zoom, Zoom, Zoom" dance.

Guy 1:Dude, you're pathetic because you've never really satisfied a woman!
Guy 2: Oh really? Well, you might want to check that with YOUR MOM! Ohhhh! Zoom Zoom Zoom !

http://school.discovery.com/schrockguide/pdf/authordate.pdf

Pantoum.

The sunlight danced upon the fence line.
He ran, but not away, he always comes back.
She smiled, for on summer mornings, everything is fine.
Their personalities clash because many differences they lack.

He ran, but not away, he always comes back.
She wants to be closer to him, now he’s just out of reach.
Their personalities clash because many differences they lack.
He has anger issues but social skill she’s willing to teach.

She wants to be closer to him, now he’s just out of reach.
Her love has begun to include him though.
He has anger issues but social skill she’s willing to teach.
She sleeps in the sun as it shines through his window.

Her love has begun to include him though.
He has a digital perspective on what he sees.
She sleeps in the sun as it shines through his window.
He hides himself behind that screen, so alone he will be.

He has a digital perspective on what he sees.
She smiled, for on summer mornings, everything is fine.
He hides himself behind that screen, so alone he will be.
The sunlight danced upon the fence line.